I Hate Coming Up With Titles For My Blog Posts

I am in such a blah mood today.  I have to go grocery shopping and I just can't get myself motivated to leave the house.  We're supposed to get some nasty weather, starting tomorrow, and I know if I don't do it today it's going to be that much more of a pain to do it later.  

At least I did take a shower and put on some clothes, rather than sitting around in my pajamas all day.  I also opened all the windows in the house to air it out & I lit a pear scented candle and it smells so good in here, like spring.  Maybe that's why I'm so blah.  I can fool myself into thinking it's spring but once I step outside, I'll know it's not (never mind the few remaining, smallish patches of snow that I can see outside of my window).

I asked Aaron if we could just take off and go to Chicago for the weekend and he looked at me like I was crazy.  I guess this isn't the best time of year to visit Chicago but I just need a change of scenery.  I think he would have agreed but he has to get ready for his talk at IndyNDA and he wants to do some stuff around the house that he's been putting off, like working on his truck and fixing the front door.

And then there is the Super Bowl this weekend.  I think any other time, Aaron would skip it but the Colts are playing.  I'm glad the Colts made it and I really hope that they win.  I told the boys that we could have our very own super bowl party.  Xander wants to put up blue & white decorations because there should always be decorations when you have a party.  They have to watch the game with us, too.  No cartoons during the super bowl. 

My dad said he'd be watching the game with a picture of Charlie sitting beside him.  I remember the last time we were all together to watch the Colts.  It was a week before Charlie passed away and we were at my dad's house.  I have a picture of Xander sitting on Charlie's lap.  Whenever my dad & Charlie got together to watch football, they would inevitably fight because my brother was loud & my dad liked the tv loud and somebody rearranged the furniture without asking and...they would always argue about something.  I know that my dad misses those arguments.

Things were kind of bad at this time last year.  Aaron and I had a big fight over Valentine's Day last year, so this year I told him not to worry about it.  It wasn't so much that he didn't do anything last year, it was that he told me he would and then didn't.  I know that he's pretty busy right now with work and his speaking engagement & lots of other little things so I told him not to worry about it.  It's just one more thing that would have been added to his list of things to do.  

Our regularly scheduled D&D game would have been on Feb. 14th but we aren't playing because some of the guys can't get away. I initially asked Aaron if he cared if I played on that day and he said, "It’s up to you.  I’m not particular on exact date’s. I can celebrate my love for you any day, or every day."

For some reason, it made me feel better to hear that and it makes Valentine's Day seem like less of a big deal.  I'll still get something for the boys and I'm thinking about doing something similar to the Valentine's on a budget suggested at Kind Over Matter for the whole family.  But it's not so much about me this time because I'm actually looking forward to doing something for Aaron and the boys without any expectations for myself.

Well, I'm just prolonging the agony right now when I could have been out the door and at the grocery store by now.  I suppose I better get my list together & the boys all bundled up if I want to be home before Aaron gets off of work.

meh.